temporary psychosis

I got a green tea cooling beside me, which is my best attempt at trying to stay awake. Even when I sleep, I'm still tired after I awake--this past week or so of sleep deprivation catching me up and I'm starting to disassociate. I feel the world becoming unreachable and it's only in instances when I remember what reality is like--when Marc talks to me on the phone--it will be great to see him again at Christmastime. Andrea is sat next to me and says she knows what it feels like to disassociate after lack of sleep--I wonder who she's talking to on her phone that's making her smile so much. I really wish I'd read Swann's Way, because that lecture was my favourite of the year. I guess I'm not that hungry anymore.